Musings…

My horoscope today reads:

Trust is easier if you can make deeper connections on many levels, so reach out.

Nobody is an island — it’s an obvious statement to say that you need relationships to get you through life. Other people provide the acid to your base, and can often be a perfect sounding board for your ideas. But in order to make the deep connections you need for total honesty, you must develop trust. The only way to do this is to take a risk and let someone in. So reach out today — lower your drawbridge and invite someone to cross your moat.

Thought provoking isn’t it? Lower your drawbridge and INVITE someone to cross your moat? …wow…as deep as an abyss goes. And I like the way it was stated that other people provide the acid to my base…just goes to prove that we all need some neutralization sometimes and that we shouldn’t be so ensconced in our own worlds, judging everything to our own standards. So I’m like thinking, if this is just some trashy horoscope website to pass the time, why does it hit a raw nerve somehow? And it hit hard where it mattered the most.

For the past few weeks, I have been told to ‘let someone in’ by some very close friends and some not-so-close friends/ acquaintances. I figured if a number of people said this to my face, then I suppose I should be on the red alert. It has led me to thinking whether I have really been stubbornly shutting people out, limiting the number of people I let into this personal space, caving myself in and wallowing in distrust. Really? How could I have missed that in analysis of who I am? Similarly, I was also told that I haven’t really been embracing life as I should…not totally. Oh, in addition to that, I am narrowing my horizons and limiting my perspective. A wise friend even went as far as to say that I am “taking

Newton

’s first law too seriously”. You know, the one that states every object persists in its state of rest or uniform motion unless it is compelled to change that state by the forces impressed on it? I’d be damned.

Though rationally thinking, don’t we all? As humans, we all resist changes in our own ways, don’t we? In the journey of life, we would all walk in a straight line on and on and on unless there is a force great enough to throw us off course, wouldn’t we? Doubtlessly, we all fear what we don’t know. Nobody can predict what’s going to happen in the future. Thus, we fear the future too, in a sense. Some fear more than the rest. Some lucky few fear less, but we all fear just the same. Just the way most of us fear whether we would have enough savings for the future, whether we would still have a good job by then or whether we would still have roofs over our heads. Because anything is possible, anyway you look at it. The once invincible Enron had collapsed. And some National Banks did too. The tsunami destroyed islands which never foresaw such destruction during its lifetime. And

Italy

won the World Cup. We fear, unless we are ignorant and innocent enough to not even wonder where we would end up or what would happen a day from now, a month from now, or even years from now. I suppose I’m not an ignorant to hardships and the wayward twists of life, nor am I an innocent – so in response to all those friends who have counseled me, YES I fear. And what I fear, I resist, and I shall go on resisting until there is a force big enough to force that change. Inertia is crap, yes I know, but a mere mortal like me cannot resist it. Thanks for trying to understand me. And for taking the time to analyze this confusing period that I am going through. All your thoughts matter to me, and I do listen. You are all in a way, ‘providing acid to my base’. Maybe I am not that neutral yet, but one day, I shall be, thanks to all your acidity, ha-ha, imagine me saying that. I hope I haven’t been too caustic to anyone so far. : )

And for all those who can’t figure out two hoots about what I’m ranting about, pardon the time it took for you to reach this line…this horoscope thingy is making me more philosophical than I should be on a Tuesday morning. I will take a hint though. I’m ‘lowering my drawbridge’ in invitation. Anyone daring enough to cross? *evil laugh*

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